*Dramatic Sigh*

Why does life have to suck so bad sometimes???

I mean... Kentucky rocked! So much fun, and i totally loved the people i met... Especially Jeff Thomas, one of the staff guys down there. He was soo much fun and really nice. I also met a bunch of kids from Louisianna and Virginia too... they were pretty nice... but i felt totally outta place and on my own the whole week, even when i was with the PA kids.

Then there was Vacation.

Talk about a long week. My cousin Lori and i talk about a lot, and so she drug up all the old Aaron memories and it caused a lot of pain. On top of that, i still really care about the one guy i was with, but he has a gf, so that was tough. I could have a boyfriend today. Peter. Peter is the guy from Slovakia i mentioned before. If it wasnt for the whole opposite sides of the world thing, he would have asked me out. I dunno if i coulda said yes, but he was a nice guy.... I dunno... I do know that both of them (Peter and the other kid) jumped to my defense when we were talking in the dark in the middle of the woods one night... I mentioned something that happened and they both were like, tell me where he live's we'll fight him for you and stuff.

Why cant i ever just find a guy i can actually have and really want to be with them... It seems like nothing has worked out that way for a while now, and i dont want to be alone forever, but thats kinda how it seems like its gonna be...


Well thats it for now
~Rach

PS- Ryan... I hope your grandma is doing well.. I'm here and praying